Easing God Out – “ego”

In short dictinary.com sais:

Defiance is a daring or bold resistance to authority or to any opposing force.

This single word has been my downfall for many of years. It is, just a word but action proceeds from thoughts. This addict, my ego, and pride have been a devastating part of my life.

Over the past 16 years give or take this word “authority” has always been an obstacle. I’ve always looked for a way around, lets say people who were trying to I thought control my life, so it seemed.

Unknown to my knowledge at the time “authority” was placed in life for a reason.

It was many years until fighting seemed like a waste of time. It truly was. The fight was rigged so I couldn’t ever win. 

Throwing in the towel has given me more strength than I could ever imagine. It truly is a paradox, but the fact of the matter is strength comes through humility.

Today defiance is not an option. Humility is a choice, and for this addict there’s no other way to live and be happy..

Press On

Have you given up? Have you ever gave up on yourself?

If your anything like me the answer is YES with capital letters.

Someone once informed me that I don’t have to live like that anymore. I have a choice today.

I’ve been through thick and thin. Ive been to the top to just fall down again, but for this addict and alcoholic I’ve always been given another chance. 

The only reason I firmly believe I’m still here is because of the grace and mercy God has shown me. It surely is not anything I’ve done. If it was up to me I’d be long gone already.

It’s easy to let my mind wander and focus on the negative impact my life has had on myself and those around me, but what good does that do? Does it help me stay clean and sober? Do those negative thoughts or pity parties help those around me? NO, and if your anything like me it doesn’t matter sometimes. Sad but true.

My addiction wants me and those around me to suffer.

My way sucks, but Gods way has always proven itself to work. 

Today I want to live Gods way. Pressing on and keeping my faith strong in Him. Taking the love He blesses me with and sharing it with those closest around me. Staying positive in times of heart ache and no matter what asking His forgiveness when I stumble and fall. Always to dust myself off and try again.

Have faith in Him and accept the love and fellowship around you today, don’t push people away because we’ve done enough damage. Love your neighbor as you want to be loved.